Currently Listening Demon Days By Gorillaz Kids With Guns see related

yeah well its been a little while since i've said much of anything on here. i still have my lip peirced after my dad said no, took pliars to my face&cut it off. &&i absolutely adore it. of course, new photo::

&&i've been going through a few problems lately that i'm not sure how to deal with. I know i should go &&be upfront about everything but i can't find my way around the problem. i have been feeling so good about myself around my friends lately because I have come past everything and actually feel confident. not about how looks but anything i say.
I don't want to become OVERconfident.
yet, i don't want to feel like a complete idiot or so worthless around people.
i felt so fucking worthless the other night/weeks.
last night was the football game.
it was enjoyable after i saw the marching band. they make me so happy...yeah, they do.
weather i know people in there or not.
it makes it better to know courtney, kelsi, phil, mae, sarah, erik, sammyy! &&everybody else is in there 'cause i love them all so friggen much.
i'm up to the point where i don't care.
carefree of a lot of things when i'm in a good mood.
not very many people can bring me down unless your my dad or somebody who means the world to me.
and the people who think they mean the world to me, probably don't right now just because of the way they've been acting.
which is terrible for me to write about in an online journal that anybody could see, but once again. i'm carefree. deal with it.
i feel worthless around certain people but i feel important around others.
and the ones i feel important around, are the ones i'd like to keep friendships with rather than the people who make me feel bad about myself.
ive sadly made a couple friends this year.
obviously losing a few friendships.
i've become friends with caitlin again, mmm thats good.
i love my baby lena so much. i just got off the phone with her.
shes in indiana and i miss her. even tho we probably wouldn't of seen eachother this weekend. quite possibly we could have at the game last night but yeah...
i think i'm really happy right now, probably still 'cause of the marching band and then also Gorillaz make me happy.
these people&more make my life/world a better place and even if i look bad, i don't care 'cause this was fun.  [[circa::my birthday.]]