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alright so... its been awhile since i've updated once again.
school has been going pretty well. had a few disagreements here and there with people. made a few new friends which include april, jimmy and elliot...i guess you could count eric too 'cause i never talked to him before. well Elliot and Jimmy both drew me pictures.
i thought they were funny so i'm going to post them on here. First one is Jimmys based off my Finding Nemo Tee that i wore. the little girl is me

and This one here is Elliots....decided to draw for me in english. I felt a bit hated, but he didn't mean that vibe to come off the picture?! i always knew i looked like a man.

all i know is that everything has been working out well for me the past couple of days. Hm, schoolwork has been a pain in the ass though. that doesn't exactly count. Yet, i love being a sophmore this year. Its probably going to be one of the best years in high school.
Next year will be alright, but my senior year will probably suck 'cause most my friends will have graduated....
Not to worry though, its a little while from now and i'm not really into thinking about it. aha.
Everybody is growing up. Everybody is changing. Everything can be disappointing and ruin how you look at somebody. First impressions are normally how i still look at people, but now how everybody is older and not the same as how i met them, i don't know how to look at them.
It basically sucks when you learn people won't always be the same as you'd like them. I mean, I know i'm most definitely not the same person I was when I met most of my good friends and I'm not always too shabby of who I am when I look back on it. Last year I was a total loser. Now, i don't really think i am....so it helps.
I don't understand a lot of the things that people do for others just to fit in or something. Just to even do because they wanted to try something new.
odds are if you have doubts about it, didnt like it at some point in your life, talked shit about somebody who did it before...You shouldn't feel better about yourself when you come across something like that.
Because nobody knows who I am.
Nobody knows what has gone on in my life.
Nobody knows how i feel about it, honestly.
Nobody understands what i've done.
and how much i regret it.
I honestly didn't know any better.
or even told anyone.
because i didn't think too highly of myself afterwards.
and it takes a while to even look at yourself in the mirror.
Yeah, Theres so much to me than anybody will ever know.
so other than all of that. I talked to ms. trackman.
i friggen love her. only she had to move to new york. butthole.
i also love my friends. a lot. lot. lot. lot.
i can't wait until the spill canvas show on the 26th
and i'm also going to see coheed/mewithoutYOU/&&the blood brothers on the 1st of october.
that should be badass.
I'm getting my ticket tomorrow, i think.
suppsoed to get it like a month ago.
and yesterday.
but i didn't/couldn't.
yesterday was katies early 16th birthday celebration since her bday is on a weekday.
Lindsay also got her license yesterday.
and somebody deleted all the pictures from last night on my camera, except three....that all had nick in it?!
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whatever. katie has some photos.
and that should be enough, i have memories and two polaroids from the photobooth.

God, do i love funway.
oh and last saturday, went to winfield/naperville with april. met audrey finally....and Liz.
met like 498735413247216540561 people too. but i didn't actually meet them.
april drives me home/only happened 2x though.
we met up once after school for a little while.
went to borders for like an hour and a half.
and we just talk a lot. aha, shes cool and i get a lot of shit for making new friends....or just 'cause its april and i talk to her a lot? whatever.
and i will eat at panera sometime.
i want to see peter, and go see It's unbelievable but I believed you
naperville, downtown area at least, is freakin gorgeous.
i love the show instant star.
i love degrassi, new season starst on the 7th.
anddddddd. smalleville starts on the 29th.
which is kristens 16th birthday.
so the next few weeks will be hectic, but i'll be off grounding and ihope i get to meet alexz johnson. ahahah. i'm cooooool.
anyway, thats all. prob staying in the house tonight 'cause i get off grounding this weekend.
and i'd love to be able to leave the house without sneaking out or something.
ahh, the freedom of not being grounded. aha.
kay so ima get ready since ill be leaving soon.
love.love.love.
J E S S ' C A